Resort Transfers

im nearly 31 and ive always been like this, growing up i was smothered and over protected by my mother.

if i was being bullied or teased at secondary school, i would quickly lose it, become upset and get aggressive or lash out, resort to violence , even growing up as a kid.

i lost alot of self esteem, and throughout life, ive found ive never been able to toughen up or get a good outer shield.

ive always lost it, become upset , got aggressive, defencive, threatened them etc.

when i was being teased at secondary school growing up, my mum always took me out of that school, she would go to the school, be rate and hurl abuse and teachers for their ineptitude and mishandling of the situation and my care , then she would let me have months off school, get me my favourite toys, favourite food, spoil and treat me..

so in-effect i learnt that i never had to face tough times from a cruel society, but instead i could run off and be taken care of.

i went to a roman catholic primary school st teresa where i had lots of friends and was happy but then i went to a completely different secondary school because the secondary modern i was going to be sent to shut down.

i ended up being transferred to an inner city multicultural school with troubled kids that was a great shock for me, suddenly having to interact with troubled rough black kids i found truly awful..

i was teased alot lost contact with my old friends from the roman catholic school, and found it difficult to make friends or mix with the ‘ different ‘ other kids.

so i missed out on schooling because my mummy kept me off because she didnt approve i go there to a bas trd dump of a school.

since then ive suffered an unfortunate life from my spoiled upbringing, i dropped out of school, rebelled and left home which i always regret now.

im neatly 31 and live in a one bedroom apartment on disability, i have ptsd , and a personality disorder – im waiting for the treatment from the health services which im going along with and doing well at.

ive made a lot of progress even though ive suffered terrible things all through early adulthood.

i very much still have an aggression problem, even though i dont have aggressive outbursts anymore , due to childhood taunts and bullying.

i get very sensitive to people words and opinions, find things difficult to brush off and always end up seeking a confrontation .

how can i learn new ways to overcome my sensitivity to harsh words, opinions , criticism, people language and opinions ?

without wanting to lose it with people and damage them ?

thanks and regards.